i was small when i was small

*i was the one in the middle, okeh?*

di suatu petang Ahad, aku belek-belek album kakda kat facebook, maka terjumpaklah sekeping gambar masa kami bercuti kat Langkawi masa aku kecik-kecik dulu. maybe i was like 3,4 years old back then sebab aku ingat lagi time tu Tian masih baby. And i was so fascinated by my own appearance at that time. seriously, kurus weh! ok la, bukanla kurus sangat, it's just kecik la. dengan rambut sarang tebuan segala, haha. funny! kalau bandingkan dengan sekarang, memang jauh beza ah. berganda-ganda aku kembangkan badan. aku pon dah tak ingat zaman bila aku boleh dicop kurus, sebab as far as i remember, masa kecik-kecik memang aku saiz kecik la. tapi when i was in kindergarten, i was among the biggest. not because of my size but because of my height. tapi one thing for sure, i started gaining fats here and there masa lepas pindah gi Kulim ah. takde jiran takde sape skola petang ngan aku so ended up takde kawan nak main-main sebab asalnya aku adalah budak kampung yang rajin main petang-petang sebab tu boleh kurus. and dekat buku report card skola convent masa darjah 2, ada la tercatat masa tu berat aku 40kg dengan ketinggian 140cm. fuh berat lah tu, but 140 for a 8 year-old girl is kinda tall jugaklah kan. sebab skang ni aku hanya 155cm. terbantut, yes terbantut dengan ketinggian masa darjah 6. dan berat skang berganda-ganda taknak pulak ianya terbantut. but it's okay, i'm just fine and i do love my body the way it is. ade nak cakap aku gemok ke ape, so what, ade aku kesah? tak pakai duit hang pon nak beli makanan aku!